我不是不想帮

只不过今天当我走出大门的时候
看了看天
再看了看眼前的一字一句

心一阵灰了

我不愿意尽我所能帮到底
我曾经会不顾一切
暂时放下一切
甚至于利用他人

去帮自己关心的人

只不过到头来会发现自己或许傻得可怜

如果有人愿意为我傻傻的付出
那我或许也是傻傻付出的另个女人

别人为你而傻
傻得可笑
自己为他人而傻
为什么会傻得可悲？

原来温柔附带条件

只是你没发现
只不过我尝试视而不见

如果是心理作祟
或许人生会好过一点
但接二连三
是否是巧合

我气我累
但也无所谓
因为感觉越来越强烈

因为近来常常失望而归

曾经常被指责于不愿付出
不曾付出

但是为什么当人慢慢学会付出的当儿
却似乎不被得到认同

为什么最终是个恶性循环

他人为我傻
我为他人昏
他人为你付出
你为他人痴痴等待

世上并非毫无情字可言
但愿痴心汉
傻得可悲
笨得可怜

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